Hi everyone. Rob here.
In less than 3 weeks I turn 50. When I started this blog I was about to turn 40 and excited about a decade mining the riches of the life of the heart I had discovered. Now another new decade beckons with a very different look to it, but a very similar invitation.
In my experience every new decade seems to carry with it a fresh path to walk down so that new discoveries and more growth can be made. My 40’s were about diving into the life of the new heart that Jesus had given more and, thereby, learning to live a more wholehearted life. God gave me travel adventures, rewarding work and a way of living out my faith that made sense and that worked. The decade ended with the new challenge of moving out of pastoring, leaving my old church and letting Jesus lead me into a new season. It hasn’t been easy but it has been good.
Now as I enter my 50’s it feels like I’ve been in training once again. It seems that God has been teaching me again just how how much I need to trust him and how much I can trust him. He is truly Sovereign and truly Good. I can trust him with my strengths and gifts and I can trust him with my weaknesses and limitations. I can trust with my vocation, my money, my family, my home (including upcoming renovations), my mind and my heart. I can trust him with placing me rightly in his kingdom. I can trust his heart for me. And I can become the kind of person whom God shines through as I truly give myself over to him.
I wasn’t that kind of person this morning. I was grumpy and resistant to critique of how I lived my life. There is still room for growth and that will never change. However, I have mostly been in a place of deep acceptance of where God has me right now. I have been in a place of deep trust and I pray that will continue. I’m increasingly less interested in what God would have me do, but more interested in becoming who he would have me be. I’m becoming less proud and more keen to walk the humble path. I didn’t know how much I needed to walk that path until now. And that’s the point. As we walk with Jesus he leads us where we need to go, not where we think we ought to go. I had one plan and God is tweaking that plan so that it’s his.
I’m happy to enter into my 50’s knowing that God is leading me, Jesus is with me and the Spirit is empowering me. My name may not be in lights but if Jesus is on the humble path then that’s the one I’m going to walk on. Every new decade is an adventure. This one involves teenagers, young adulthood, a new stage of marriage, new workplaces and a growing love for Jesus. It sounds good to me.
As you ponder the decade and stage of life that you’re in, may you know God’s deep invitation into his heart, his joy and his life. He’s on your side and asks that you be on his. He is sovereign and he is good, oh so good.
Grace and peace.